90 Day Challenge

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One detail I have not touched on yet that I want to bring up is this: I have been on many journeys in the past and this is just one more. Starting over is hard. One key to not starting over is to refuse to quit. I sorely wish I had refused to quit all of those times before, but there’s really no going back now.

Before my diabetes and fibromyalgia diagnoses in 2012, I was on the road to health. The problem was, I had roadblocks and obstacles working against me that I wasn’t aware of. Once these diagnoses became clear to me, it realized that I was never going to become truly healthy no matter how much weight I lost because my disabilities were contributing to my weight loss in an unhealthy manner.

I gained weight in the process of getting healthy, due to many things including medications, dietary changes and setbacks. I gained from 195 to 240. Today I sit at 236, and I never want to hit 240 again. I never want to gain weight beyond where I’m at now, I only want to become healthier. I’m going to post some pictures that make me feel shy and terrible because I need to own it. I need to admit that I’m unhealthy, I need to be honest with myself about myself and my health. So here is a picture from my at my greatest weight, 370lbs, and a picture I took recently at ~240lbs.

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For future reference, the initial picture is from roughly 2007, which is right around when it is believed that I became diabetic. The second picture is from January of 2014. I have lost so much weight, but I have a long way to go. Now I am focusing on more than my pant size. I want to be healthy.

I am picking up momentum again, and this time I will not give up.

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Beginning: 90 Day Challenge

I can safely say two things about myself today:

  1. Every day I learn a little bit more about who I am.
  2. Every day I acknowledge a little more that I am not where I want to be.

I don’t want to take a pessimistic route with these points of understanding. I read a meaningful quote today, which read:

“A year from now you will wish you had started today..”       – Karen Lamb

Every day I wish I had started yesterday. Every day I wish I had started a week ago, a month ago, last year, when I was younger.

What I realize now is that I am tired of this hindsight mentality. It is time to move forward, to be positive, to create change.

Yesterday I proposed a 90 day challenge with a very good friend of mine, Mandi Raymond of Mommy Update. I told her to decide which goals she wanted to pursue, then pursue them for 90 days. The only real rule of the challenge is that we need to blog about it every day. 90 days of blogging will help us hold ourselves (and one another) accountable as we go. I think this is the best way to push forward.

So the first thing that I want to do, on Day One of this challenge, is to outline the goals I am setting for myself and a little bit about how I plan to achieve them, or at least to move forward with them if not to achieve them completely. Because setting a goal like “Lose 25 pounds” has an inherent flaw: If I don’t achieve it, I’ll be unhappy. If I realize it’s unachievable at some point, I might quit trying. I still prefer to set measurable goals such as this one, but with the caveat that I won’t give up if I’m not going to make it. Every step toward the goal is a positive one, even if my pace is not where I want it to be. Even if I won’t meet my goal on time. I’ll still push forward.

90 Day Challenge Goals

  1. Lose 30 lbs.
  2. Finish out the Spring semester of school.
  3. Finish one of my WIP novels.
  4. Get my jewelry-making business moving again.
  5. Pay off 50% of my credit card debt.

I tried to choose goals that impact different parts of my life. My health, my education, my work, my bills, my happiness. I don’t know if I’ll meet all five goals by the end of 90 days, but I’m going to try. I’m going to try with every ounce of everything I have. And if I accomplish one, or two, or three or five, I’ll be just as happy. I’ll feel just as accomplished. That’s my plan, and I’m sticking to it.

 

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